ting & yin.

yeah baby. finally. i cudn't load this bloody page for the last hour. and finally it's ok. i wonder if it's something wrong with the bloggie page or sth wrong with my com. not like it matters since i'm here now! feeling so crappified. i need a hug. but anyway, the rest of the day was nice, cheerful and happy. i don't remember how i did it. ALL I REMEMBER IS THE STUPID PHYSICS TALK!!!!!!! it was super sad boohoo i really wanted to cry. first, the stupid professor or wadever guy in the lab coat that was supposed to be pro in whatever he was teaching us looked like a MOUSEEEE. yah. and he cudn't speak properly in the mike at all i cudn't hear wad he was saying! and when i finally heard something, he was talking about how ELECTRICITY was used in refrigerators, lights, and he had this silly transparency with silly little cute pictures of people doing things with ELECTRICITY WOWWWWWW wowwwww amazinggggg and guess what some people in front of me were actually writing down that as notes!! wowwww brilliant. oh. and only after half an hour of talking about electrical currents and all things about MOVING electricity did he realise that -- he was on the wrong topic all the time! he was supposed to be talking about STATIC electricity. haha. ha. sad chap. and then all his equipment cudn't work properly and he blamed it on the fact that they were made in china ahhahahahaa! that part was quite funneh. den he turned off the lights and he had this torch which he conveniently DROPPED ON THE FLOOR and it smashed into pieces and everything fell out even the batteries! so it was totally dark and he had to feel for the lights. smart. yah. finishing off some stupid hist essay now. was planning to pon tomorrow with some people in my class but since i'm already writing one letter for yesterday, and we only have 3 letters for the whole daaaamn year, my mum tinks i can't waste it. . okie. nevermind. school's dumb tomorrow. let it be dumb. hate mr chee. teaches softball wrongly. talks cock. he's disgusting. BLEAHHHHH nevermind. forgivable. he's probably so old he cant register how to play softball properly in the first place. wooooooooo! yayyyyy tuesday can see bats!! nice new bats. :) so happy! oops. supposed to call rest of the team to chase them for money. ok. i'll do it. AHHHHH i duno how to end off dis hist essay! nvmmmmm hai. so how was yur day ting? i dun remember doing much today but i actually feel kinda tired! wa lau hahaaahaaa. stupefied. ok listening to xing qing jay chou. feel happier all of a sudden. it's raining again. perfect! :))) beautiful day after all. hahahaha. I've bound my emotions 'cause I can't afford to be wrong wad a nice song! blessid union of souls the rest of my life. quite nice. at least the lyrics are nice. hahaha. ate half of dinner just now. gonna eat more later. though it's pretty late. hahaha. thinking about some stuff now. feeling quite baffled. yaaaaaaaaawn tired! wah teeng must be HAPPILY sleeping now. hahahahaa. And I'm not about to throw words to the wind / when I said "I love you" that's what I meant hahahaha wah lau huiteeeeng want to come to my house to bai nian?! wah no one will give her ang paaao la booboocats dun get ang pao if you're lucky yu MIGHTTTTTT get some yummy fish tho hahaha.

realised yet one more time that i don't know where i'm going.
don't know what's there to look forward to.
don't see any roads. no junctions. no choices that need to be made.
all of them end in the same place. everyone will turn out the same.
i don't want this. i don't need this.
so i want to run away. i already know what's gonna happen the next 10 years of my life.
not exactly. but the big plans, yes. and it's not very happying. i dn feel like it's gonna make me any happier.
or anymore satisfied. maybe i'll be more secure. but that doesn't mean a thing. doesn't mean a thing.
don't know what i want.
but i know two things!
i need to get out of here.
i love youuuuuuuu!!!!! like hell.